Motherhood

To My Babies: Thank You for Making Me a Mother

Two and a half years ago, my life changed forever. You see, my sweet baby boy, just over two short years ago, you were born, and you turned my world upside down. The minute I laid eyes on you, I saw a piece of my heart outside of my body, and a love I never imagined filled my soul. You laid on my chest, and as our hearts beat together, I couldn’t help but cry from the pure joy of the moment.

So many sleepless nights followed, but I cherished them. I loved our time together in the quiet of the night, with your daddy sleeping soundly next to us as you drank milk my body was working so hard to provide for you. The noise of the outside world died down, and we could just focus on each other. Oh, how I miss those nights.

From the beginning, I was in awe of your personality and your fighting spirit. You surprised us by entering the world five weeks early, and you fought so hard to show everyone just how strong you were during that long week in the NICU. They warned us that you may hit milestones later than you should, but you once again proved them wrong. You’re a fighter, but more than that, you have a true love and passion for life. You’re only 2 1/2 years old, and you already exhibit so much empathy and love for others that I’m truly humbled and proud of your spirit. I always knew you were destined to be a big brother.

That’s where you come in, my beautiful baby girl. Your daddy and I thought we would wait a little bit before we had another baby, but thankfully God had bigger, better plans for us. Just two weeks after your brother’s first birthday, you entered the world, and our lives were never the same. Even though the doctors said we had a significant chance of you being born early, you showed everyone that you made your own timeline. You were born and 39 weeks, and we were so thankful to not have to watch you go to the NICU. You laid on my chest for an hour before anyone else held you, and I still cherish that time. I still remember the smell of your skin, the shape of your eyes as you looked at me for the first time, and how little your fingers felt as they wrapped around mine. When your brother was born, I didn’t think my heart could hold any more love, but once again, I was wrong. I have so much love for the two of you that sometimes, it hurts.

You have so much spunk and joy for life, my sweet baby girl. I love how hard you work to keep up with your big brother, and when you give me that big smile and bless me with your precious laugh, all my stress and worries just melt away. You are so young, and yet you already have the natural ability to find joy in the little things. You inspire me, by beautiful girl.

My sweet babies, watching the two of you grow together continues to equally be the greatest joy and the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life. As you reach new milestones, I’m so proud of you and excited for you, but I also feel so sad to say goodbye to the stage you are leaving. I know that I am so blessed to have two healthy babies that are growing and flourishing, but I wish time would slow down just a little.

As Mother’s Day approaches, I realize it’s a day that is supposed to honor and celebrate me, but really I think it should be about the two of you. You two are the lights of my life. You brought a wholeness to my soul that I didn’t even realize was missing before you were born. I love your father deeply, but having the two of you has grown and changed our love in the best ways, and I’m so thankful for that. So for Mother’s Day, I just want to celebrate you and soak in moments with you that I know will slip through my fingers so quickly. My sweet baby boy and my beautiful baby girl, thank you so much for making me a mother.

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